Saturday, June 5, 2010

are we there yet?

the school year is over. i made it. just like in my real marathon, limping across the finish line with the street cleaners in pursuit.

but i don't know if this whole cancer thing is over. it might be...

i am tired from the arimidex, i can feel my anti-depressant fighting it out with the depressive effects of the arimidex, and my joints hurt. but it's not bad enough yet to take my chances.

i wanted to find meaning in all of this, but all i found were little broken pieces. maybe i can fit them together. maybe then they will make sense...

i wanted an ending to the blog. a clean way to wrap it all up--you know, like a novel. but like the rest of this whole thing, it's messy. so i guess i just stop writing.

but to anyone who is still reading, thank you. thank you. thank you for listening. you have no idea how much it meant to me. and i am deeply grateful for your presence.



  1. wishing you never would need to say another word... k

  2. Will miss your posts. Maybe start a general life stuff blog?

  3. Hi, my name is Leslye and I am sort a new at this blogging, I started my 1st around last part of 2009. It's about my work some and health/wellness some and the 2nd one is about me more or spirit path. I don't have cancer but I do have lupus sle and I struggle every day with things I can and can't do. It's hard for some one to know how the other feels if they have never had such an illness or health issues.
    I hope you don't mind but I am putting you on my prayer list and I do wish and pray for you many blessings to come to you! Thank you for sharing with us all that you do and what your going through, may the good Lord wrap his loving arms around you!

  4. Well done, lady wordsmith...

    Hope to see you & Chad when I'm in town.

  5. Thank you for sharing your journey. I really do enjoy your writing, so if you choose to continue blogging, I'll be following.