Wednesday, December 16, 2009

just a stage

i have moved a little past the anger stage. no, really. i am not constantly pissed off any more. however i seem to have skipped the "bargaining" stage, maybe because there isn't really a contact person for whatever universal force i believe in.

i have substituted whining for bargaining. i can't help it. even though i know it could be a lot worse, etc. people ask me how i am and i tell them. i know i shouldn't do it--no one likes a tiresome, whining cancer patient. our job is to be upbeat and noble. i am neither right now.

i hope it's just a stage.

2 comments:

  1. i, for one, think upbeat and noble are overrated! Go for the whining!

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  2. Remember, many of those people asking how you are really WANT to know how you are, and there's no harm in being honest with them. I guess if they stop asking, it's one way to discern which ones really didn't want to know. Your real friends will keep asking!

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