when i saw my surgeon recently for my imaginary tumor, she said that my oncologist (who is a good friend of hers) said that i was "a great patient."
this is not good. i did not know that there were great patients.
the problem is if there can be great patients, there can be awful patients, and barely adequate patients, and slightly better than average patients--and i have no where to go but down.
what if i get bad news at my appointment tomorrow? how does a great patient react? calmly, philosophically, positively, maybe just one little tear but then a brave smile and a determination to soldier on?
what if i get good news? is a great patient grateful, appreciative, thankful for this life-changing experience?
i am clearly about to fall from grace.