i can't tell you when i went from being a woman "diagnosed with breast cancer" to a woman who "has breast cancer." it was a gradual slide, a matter of learning to be able to say it. but i can tell you exactly when i went from being a woman who "has breast cancer" to someone who "has cancer." it was this morning at 6:23.
my mouth felt particularly scuzzy. i looked in the mirror and found my tongue and the entire inside of my mouth covered with white fuzz, just like the rind on a piece of brie.
i have thrush and i have f(*&ing cancer.